Saturday, August 05, 2006
Hey sunshine,
It seems I'm clamming up into my own shell (if I have one, that is) and getting away from reality, from God, from my friends. However, from the bottom of my heart, I apologise if i've ever let anyone of you think that I don't want you in my life, I do, it's just that, at this stage of my life, I've to prioritise. It's the last lap of the four years and i'm not going to slow down, I'm going to accelerate, even faster.
The real problem with me now is that I study hard, and not smart. How I do that, is of a puzzle to me still. I've been working out all plans, trying out, and I guess we always learn from failures. Of course it hurts. Especially when you study so darn hard and so darn early for a particular test and kind of neglect other subjects to find out that you passed the other neglected subjects and failed that test you mugged your eyeballs out for. Or worse still, fail every other test. You see, my dear friends, our test results DOES NOT reflect the amount of time and effort we put in. Our marks, is in this proportion : 50% effort/time 20% questions are in our context aligned with what we studied 10% whether our marker is stringent, or goes all out (in good means, though) to cancel marking schemes we so faithfully study and come up with new ones 10% pure luck 10% pure genes/smartness in that subject ( i'm serious, if you have it, you have, if you don't, you just don't) Disagree with me by all means, but you will have to agree with it to a certain extent, because well, you've been through tests too. (:
Now what am I most worried about?
1) Insufficient time
2) Brain and knowledge not in context with papers
3) Breaking down
4) Losing touch with my world other than studies
5) My piano exam which I've been neglecting
At this point of time, all I need is to maximise every single second I have, yes, sleep can be left till after o's.
I'm walking on sunshine (OH OH OHHHH)
I'm walking on sunshine (OH OH OHHHHH)
and my feet is burnt now.
MUAHAAHAH
*private joke ( only know to haha clan ) : Confucian ideology encouraged authority and angarian and angarian ways, and angarian ways.
((: love you sunshine!
the time is 9:45 AM
Hey sunshine,
It seems I'm clamming up into my own shell (if I have one, that is) and getting away from reality, from God, from my friends. However, from the bottom of my heart, I apologise if i've ever let anyone of you think that I don't want you in my life, I do, it's just that, at this stage of my life, I've to prioritise. It's the last lap of the four years and i'm not going to slow down, I'm going to accelerate, even faster.
The real problem with me now is that I study hard, and not smart. How I do that, is of a puzzle to me still. I've been working out all plans, trying out, and I guess we always learn from failures. Of course it hurts. Especially when you study so darn hard and so darn early for a particular test and kind of neglect other subjects to find out that you passed the other neglected subjects and failed that test you mugged your eyeballs out for. Or worse still, fail every other test. You see, my dear friends, our test results DOES NOT reflect the amount of time and effort we put in. Our marks, is in this proportion : 50% effort/time 20% questions are in our context aligned with what we studied 10% whether our marker is stringent, or goes all out (in good means, though) to cancel marking schemes we so faithfully study and come up with new ones 10% pure luck 10% pure genes/smartness in that subject ( i'm serious, if you have it, you have, if you don't, you just don't) Disagree with me by all means, but you will have to agree with it to a certain extent, because well, you've been through tests too. (:
Now what am I most worried about?
1) Insufficient time
2) Brain and knowledge not in context with papers
3) Breaking down
4) Losing touch with my world other than studies
5) My piano exam which I've been neglecting
At this point of time, all I need is to maximise every single second I have, yes, sleep can be left till after o's.
I'm walking on sunshine (OH OH OHHHH)
I'm walking on sunshine (OH OH OHHHHH)
and my feet is burnt now.
MUAHAAHAH
*private joke ( only know to haha clan ) : Confucian ideology encouraged authority and angarian and angarian ways, and angarian ways.
((: love you sunshine!
the time is 9:45 AM